21 day water fast: day 5

spacesuitLike yesterday, another slow start this morning with low blood pressure, and I had to be careful not to stand up too quickly after lying or sitting.  I feel slow too, like Earth’s gravity has increased somewhat: almost as if I’m wearing an Apollo spacesuit.  Mentally I’m totally fine, but for the past couple of days it hasn’t felt good to exert myself physically.  Back on Day Three, for instance, I decided to do some leg lifts and a plank – something which has been part of my daily routine for years.  After a few minutes of the plank, though, I felt a lot of resistance building up inside myself.  I know I could have held out for the usual 7 minutes, but it just wasn’t worth it.  To a lesser degree the same applied to the leg lifts.  Why? Continue reading 21 day water fast: day 5

21 day water fast: day 2

the voidToday has been one of extremes.  The morning was again spent in a frenetic whirlwind of doing: tidying up and rearranging the house to make it liveable.  I finished mid-afternoon and went outside to sit.  Just sit and be.  In that moment, it hit me again like a wave: the conflict inside me.

Sitting with the feeling, I don’t think the root of the emotion is in feeling somehow guilty for leaving the family behind.  No.  That’s just a cover for the truth.  No, it’s safer to feel the conflict and be distracted by it, than to be confronted with the raw truth – the raw truth of being. Continue reading 21 day water fast: day 2

21 day water fast: day 1

And so the journey begins.  In a way, it began last night with the end of dinner, the end of eating.  A strange feeling: the idea of three weeks without food.  It seems like such a long time that I can’t really grasp what it means, how it feels, and how I’ll feel.  I don’t worry about not eating – it’s more that the idea of a 21-day water fast draws a complete blank in my mind.  A blank so expansive and huge that the concept of time itself becomes lost in it. Continue reading 21 day water fast: day 1

21 day water fast: day 0, or ‘the day before’

mount everestWhy?  Why 21 days?  For everyday detox, cleansing and health a week-long fast would be perfectly sufficient.  Well, I’ve done numerous 7-10 day water fasts over previous years, and I was thinking that a longer fast would be able to dig deeper into my body.  I’d like to experience that.  Also, it’s been a while since doing such a fast, because over the last couple of years I’ve been experimenting with dry fasting instead.

But maybe most concisely, it’s best summed up in the words of Edmund Hillary (the first man to reach the summit of Mount Everest).  Why climb Mount Everest?  As he said: because it’s there.  Of course a 21-day fast comes nowhere near to climbing the tallest peak in the world, but the motive has largely been the same.  To see what’s at the top of the mountain, this mountain. Continue reading 21 day water fast: day 0, or ‘the day before’